Two phrases, two concepts have become the key ones for me during the time of work in this program, “You have all the answers inside and around you. Stay attentive and you will hear them” and “Time is our Friend”.
I came to the course after six years of continuous work and volunteering. I traveled halfway around the world and have seen hundreds of people and dozens of cities during this time. I was doing the work that inspired me, and was sharing the inspiration with many others.
On the one hand, my life has finally become the one that I had long dreamed of – a meaningful, exciting, interesting and full of experiences. But flinging into this maelstrom, I soon realized that there is absolutely no room for “me”left – for my rest, for the possibility to listen to myself, to stop, to understand what I need at this very moment. As a result, the job of my dream quickly turned into a race of guessing-and-meeting-the-desires-of-other-people , which did not bring me any joy anymore. I had no strength to keep racing in the same way, and did not know where to find a “new” motivation.
The week with the Flow was like a mountain river for me. Not a violent, impetuous, smashing everything in its path river (the way my life was), but a quiet, relaxing, almost inaudible, nutritious and refreshing one. I can not express the pleasure I experienced when I set my phone and computer aside on the day of arrival to the course (worrying for all those who will be looking for me :)), and… forgot about them happily for almost a week! From the morning to the evening my days were filled with enormous beauty and taste: morning walks in still twilight forest, respiratory exersices, delicious vegetarian food, substantial and conscience-reversing lectures, smoothly flowing into conversations by the fireplace, bathhouse, swimming in the ice pull and yoga with the sound of Tibetan bowls. I simply had no time to be “distracted” and no wish to be somewhere else but “here and now”. At first, I wondered to myself And then I began to explore and tastefully memorize and absorb this condition, repeating to myself in thoughts: “All that is happening now is exactly what should happen. I have everything around me that I need, if only I can feel, see and embrace it. ”
In fact in my life I am a “brainiac”, perceiving everything through information, rational explanations and concepts. If I can not explain something, I find it hard to accept it. Especially if we are talking about something intangible. Fortunately, the Flow was filled with lectures, which made up (and even overwhelmed) my request for information. For the first time in many years (and I have really been looking for and exploring these subjects for a long time), I met and mastered the concept that shows the relationship of internal, personal processes and activism, combines theory of social change work with those of post trauma, post-colonialism, feminism and gender. That pleased me no end! I finally was able to “bring together” parts of my experience and knowledge that before this have seemed to contradict each other. As a result I have a notebook filled to the end, and a whole new perspective on social changes, politics and activism, which I am engaged with.
But beside that “usual” for me way to learn, the Flow gave the opportunity to develop and learn other skills: self-observation, communication with nature (which turned out to be able to “talk” to you and worth listening to! As it has something to say ), self-care, thoughtful and measured understanding and discussion of very different views (without debate, without raising the voice and proving “one’s truth”), working with the body, with energy and conscience. And the most important, the understanding appeared of how these two ways of perceiving the world – rational and emotional, energetic – are interlinked and mutually reinforcing. I felt as though I was now standing “on two legs”.
The course ended, but I know that the work I’ve done there, keeps going – the deep work on “listening to myself” and “search of silence” in our everyday fuss, trust to time as to the best friend, who knows what I need (and what I don’t) at this very moment. Work on search and restoration of the integrity inside and around me.
I wholeheartedly recommend this course to those smart and active people who already do a lot for there communities and their deeds change the world, but it somehow does not make them feel entirely happy anymore… If you’re not afraid to ask yourself some unexpected, puzzling questions, and look for answers deep down inside yourself, and not outside, and do that in the company of intelligent, kind and sincere people – you have the chance to “come up” after the workshop with an updated picture of the world, constructed and clarified goals and values and qualitatively new sense of self and the world. Changing your inner world, filling it with love and peace, we are changing the world around us – not only that I felt it during the course, but also I understood how it works. It is this understanding that I wish everyone who is working on social changes in our societies to have.